” Maybe I Wanna Be Alone? ” I Reply
” No One Wants To Be Alone. ” He Says.
” You Dont Know What Hell Ive Been Thru Today” I Say, As I Turn And Walk Away.
meeting this jerk, didnt make me feel anybetter. it felt as i had looked for hours to find Jacen.
” Will You Take Me Home?” I Say.
” Yeah, Let Me Just Find My Keys” She Says.
I Quickly Walked Out And Got Into The Car. Jacen Got In The Car, And Soon Started The Engine And We Was Gone.
I played around with the radio until i found a decent station, it would be my luck that The Fray would be playing. They’re only the most depressing band.
Memorys kept playing over and over in my head, i thought about the moment, i truely lost my heart to him.
” your my everything ” he said while he stared into my eyes.
” your cheesey, brandon” i said as i stuck out my tounge.
” i still dont think ill understand how one little person can mean so much” he said while moving the hair from my eyes.
i smile.
” i dont get why we put each other through all this” i say.
” because weather we want to admit it or not, sometimes it comes to a point when we cant stand each other, but we cant stand each other being with anyone else either”. he says.
i kiss him.
” I love you ” he whispers in my ear.
i roll my eyes and smile.
” this is going to be hard ” he finally said.
” what is?” i say confused.
” leaving here” he says.
” i dont understand what your meaning ” i say once again confused.
” you know we cant be together ” he says looking away
i didnt even have a good come back for that one, i just turned the other way, and stared at the wall, fighting off the tears. i felt him get up. i quickly rolled over and looked and he was sitting in my computer chair.
” Brandon , you never make things easy for me, i just want you.” i say.
he didnt say anything, but i could tell what he was thinking. my day dream was quickly interupted.
” Stephanie, Stephanie, Stephanie,” Jacen Says.
” Oh Sorry, What Is It” I Reply
” Nothing, You Was Just Scaring Me ” She Says Looking Relieved.
” I Was Just Thinking ” I Say, Continueing To Stare Out The Window.
” I Could Tell That Much, Youve Only Flooded Half Of My Car With Your Tears ” She Says Smiling.
” Wow, I Feel Stupid ” I Say Laughing.
” Will You Drop Me Off Here?” I Say.
” Are You Crazy? ” Jacen Says.
” My House Isnt That Far From Here, Please Jay, I Just Need Some Time To Think” I Plead.
” If I Let You Off Here And Something Happens To You I Swear I’ll Never Be Able To Forgive Myself” She Says Pulling The Car Over Into Flatlick Parking Lot.Leave It To Jacen To Be Conserned About The Least Likely To Happen, Some Times I Think Shes Living In A Eposide Of Law And Order.
” Ill Call You Later, Promise ” I Say As I Gave Her A Quick Hug And Jumped Out And Shut The Door, Before Giving Her Time To Reply.
I Stood There Waiting for her to pull out, which seemed to take forever.
I Took Off Walking The Opposite Direction Of My House . It Wouldnt Suprise Me If Jacen Shows Up, But That Was The Chance I Was Going To Have To Take. The Most She Could Do Was Run Me Over.
I Didnt Really Know Where I Was Going At First, But I Soon Turned Around And Realized What I Was Going To Have To Do. I Needed To See Him, And I Know The Perfect Way To Make It Possible.
I Didnt Really Know What I Was Going To Say. 7 Simple Numbers Thats All I Had To Get Out, And I Couldnt Even Get Passed The First Two. Im Just Gonna Have To Suck This Up. I Say To Myself, As I Dial The Rest Of The Number And Wait Til He Answers.
” Stephanie ? ” He Says Confused.
My Heart Dropped, The Way It Always Did When I Heard His Voice.
” Who Else? ” I Say, Sucking Up My Depressing Attitude.
” Im so sorry about today, i didnt think you was gonna take it that hard, if i known i would have… ” i cut him off.
” Dude, Dont Worry About It, It Was Really Nothing . ” I Lied.
” Oh . ” He Says Dissapointed.
What Was Up With That Tone I Wondered To Myself, What Was He Expecting ? Suicide I Think Not.
” I Was Kinda Calling To Ask For A Favor, Since After Today You Do Owe Me ” I say.
” Sure, What Is It? ” He Says .
” I Need You To Come Get Me And Take Me To Get My Car. ” I Say.
He Didnt Say Anything.
” If You Dont Want To I Mean Its Fine, And Completely Understandable, I Can Call Someone Else. ” I Say.
” No Of Course, Ill Come, Where Are You ” He Says.
” Flatlick ” I Say Back .
” Ill Be Right There ” He Says.
” Alright I Lov”. I Cut My Sentence Off. ” Bye “
” Bye .” He Says.
It Took Him A Mintue To Hang Up, I Cant Believe I Waited For Him To Hang Up. I Should Have Just Hung Up Soon As He Said Bye. Gosh! I Can Be So Stupid. I Sat Down On The Side Walk. I Dont Know What To Say, What To Do. Maybe I Should Cry, Plead, Beg, Tell Him Hes All I Ever Wanted And That I Would Do Anything To Make Him Stay With Me Or Maybe… I Should Act Fine, Tell Him About The Boy I Seen Tonight, Tell Him I Think It Was Best He Did This, That I Had Thought About It For So Long But Could Bear Telling Him, Or That Im Happy Hes Finally Gonna Have Another Chance To Be With Her. Or On The Other Hang I Could Just Not Say Anything Considering It Wasnt My Place, Or My Buisness, It Wasn’t Like We Were Married, We Was Just Stupid Young Kids In Puppy Love. Wow I Cant Even Believe What I Was Thinking Or How Much I Was Overanalzying Everything.
I Heard His Tires.
” Hey ” I Say As I Climbed In His Truck.
He Smiled.
” Whats That Look About?” I Say Puzzled.
” Nothing Im Just Glad Your Still Gonna Be In My Life ” He Says.
” Actually I Just Need To Get My Car. ” I Say Giggling .
” Funny . ” He Says As He Pulls Out.
After A Few Mintues Of Awkward Silence.
” So, What Dont You Have Any Good Music In This Thing? ” I Say. Searching His Glove Department.
” Be Careful, You Dont Know What You’ll Find In There. ” He Says.
” How About You Be Careful And Keep Your Eyes On The Road And Stop Worrying About Me ” I Snap At Him.
” How Could I Not Worry ABout You? ” He Says Smiling, Touching My Hand.
” Brandon” I Say.
” what?” He Replies.
” Dont Do That ” I Say Moving My Hand.
” Whats Wrong With Me Touching You ? ” He Says Confused.
” You Know Im Still In Love With You, That Im Not Gonna Be Okay With Everything In 5 Hours, So Please Save Me The Heart Ache” I Say Staring At His Face.
He Didnt Look Away From The Road.
” Do You Love Her. ” I Say.
It Took Him A Mintue To Answer, Probaly Longer Than It Should Have.
” Not As Much As I Loved You ” He Said .
I Turned My Head Hiding My Expression. I Could Feel That He Was Looking At Me, but there was no way i was gonna look over and let him see me in this much pain. Never would I let Brandon Gray get pleasure from my pain.
” Hmm. Pretense ” I Said.
I Stared Out The Window. This Was Possibly One Of The Longest Nights Of My Life. I Started Digging Threw The Glove Department Again.
” You Should Really Clean This Out Sometime ” I Say, Smiling.
” Stephanie, Stop ” He Says.
” Okay, Geez. It was just a joke ” I grumble.
” No, stop pretending ” He said, with a straight face.
” I Dont Know What Your Talking About? ” I Lied.
I Should Have known he was the one person, who knew my face like a Dr. Suess book. They Was No Lying to him.
” Your Not Happy, And Your Defently Not Happy For Me ” He Says.
” How Do You Know ” I Say Pissy.
” You dont look at me when your upset and i know for a fact you dont like her ” he says.
” Can’t You Just Let Me Think I Have It Together ” I Say.
” No. ” He Said.
” Hmm. Look Heres A Cd ” I Say, As I Pop Into The Cd Player. I Shuffled Through The Cd, And Looked For Something I Knew.
” STOP! ” He Shouted
” WHAT!? ” I Scream.
” I Like That Song ” He Says Laughing.
” Wow. That Was Real Mature ” I Say .
The song started off, like it was going to be a fast song, but this song was by far not a sad song.
” whats this called anyways” i say.
” The Truth, Its By Jason Aldean ” He Says.
” Oh, I See ” I Say.
As I Listen To The Words Of The Song, Becomming More Upset Than I Already Was. Tears Started Streaming Down My Cheecks, Uncontrolably. Before The Song Was Over I Was Sobbing. The Car Stopped .
” Where Are We ? ” I Say.
